Red Right Ankle

Hey folks. Long time no blog. Not like anyone was waiting anyway. So much has happened. For instance. In my last post which was well over a year ago I had just started dating my first boyfriend. Now he is my ex and I have found my soul-mate! I've known Josh since about August and we've been officially together since December. I like telling the story of how Josh and I really got to know eachother so perhaps I will post it sometime. However, this post is going to cover some current events. Tonight when I was at Aikido having a great time learning and growing like usual something unexpected happened. My partner and I were at the far end of the mat and were switching stances when my foot landed in the space between the mat and the wooden frame around it. (A canvas material covers the mat and is connected to the boards.) I twisted my ankle really bad *I think it's sprained---at minimum*. It hurt ferouciously and after I hobbled over to the chair my sensai got me I was starting to feel faint. I'm kinda prone to fainting so this wasn't surprising to me. I fought the feeling for awhile but eventually all the white gi's became one blur with the cream colored mat and I was out. It was intense. Normally when I faint nothing happens between the time I am out and the time I am back. Just seconds have passed and nothing occurs in my mind during that time. Like non-dreaming sleep. This time was different. I saw vivid and rushing imagery and had a series of thoughts. I seem to remember being focused on my pelvic region. When I came back it took me a moment to realize where I was and who I was looking at. My sensai had cought me before I fell off the chair. He said I had a small seizure. Apparently my whole body tensed up for a moment or two. That would explain the imagry...I didn't just faint...I also had a mini-seizure. Well that's what he said anyway and I believe he is a very knowledgable person. So I was a little shook up for a bit but I was able to drive myself home and walk for the most part. I thought that I may have exaggerated my injury...I don't think so now *wince* Ouchie! Well I guess that's it. Except I wanna mention I have the coolest folks in so many ways....but dad doing my taxes for me is a big plus! Oh yeah, and I like it when my cousin has DND in our apartment. Very entertaining.

   Hmmm....new stuff...happens.....but nothing changes. Today was....like three days packed into one. Like usual I was all sicky in my eight am class. I always seem to feel icky at that time of the day. It's a good thing I like that class or I would probably skip it all the time ^_^. After that class I go to work.
   I really like my job. My boss is ok. Lately she has been a little irritating though. The store is changing big time and I guess she's stressed. She has become somewhat of a Nazi about our "stations". If you are the coffee person you sure as hell better not make a pretzel. Even if she is talking on the phone *a very common occurance* and doesn't seem to be wrapping it up. I know why but I also think you should take each situation as it comes and be flexible.
   School is ok too. But icky too. I miss my computer classes. Life is getting hectic. *Getting really pissed at launchcast - it keeps cutting out* Between school, work, and sleeping....and cleaning...and bill paying....well I feel pretty stretched. There is also the element of "new boyfriend". Wow. It's pretty amazing to say I have a boyfriend. It was just as amazing to say I had a friend. Someone I actually like to be around. For years now I've been pretty solitary. Friends either physically far away...or another type of distant. Then all of a sudden, out of the blue, for the first time ever, I was asked out. He turns out to be a cool guy and we have stuffs in common and I feel comfortable around him. Good deal.
   That's it. I guess I don't feel like writing right now. Maybe later. arg.

[Listening to: Crowded Elevator - Incubus - When Incubus Attacks, Vol. 1 [EP] (04:46)]

Hallo.

Hmm...I just looked at an older post (from february) and realized that a lot has happened since then. I've gotten a new *much better* job. It doesn't devour my soul like White Drug did. Now I work at a small Barista (Coffee shop, pretzel maker, gifts, and crafts) called Crazy Woman Mercantile. It's hard sometimes...but my brain doesn't turn to mush like it used to *very often*. I don't want to think about work anymore tonight. Ta

[Listening to: Depeche Mode - Strangelove (Pain Mix) - (07:19)]

Whoa...is this really happening? Is it a dream? Or a nightmare? No....this is it....an actual update! Kakoi! My life is pretty boring so I seem to avoid updating unless unusual stuff or ~things~ happen. I'm no longer living in *the dungeon*. I finally moved out of the parents' house. My sis and I (and her best buddy Afton) are renting a house. I LOVE IT. Ummm...that it I guess. It's just a normal boring house. Nice big yard though. I already feel "at home". We've got a big tv...quite a few dvds, foods and toilet paper....all the necessities. ^_^ umm...yeah. I also got a deviant art account...I'm enjoyepizoic like usual. Thats it for now. Maybe more tomorrow because everytime I use this program I remember how much I like it.

[Listening to: The Doors - Black Train Song *http://launch.yahoo.com/launchcast/station.asp?u=1203895334*- (012:22)]

   Something more. I lost my job about half a month ago. Along with 12 other people. The whole store. A meeting was scheduled for after work one day and we were all set in our back room. About five or six suit and tie upper managment came in and told us that from that moment on White Drug was closed. I'm actually enjoying not having a job for a little while but man am I broke. My last check was only fifty dollars. Not too worried though because I don't need money all that much now that I'm done paying for books and tuition for the year. I'll also be going to my uncle's restaurant to work for the next couple weekends and I might get a little tip money.
   My dog was sick yesterday. She woke me up in the morning with her puking - ON MY BED! No big deal. She puked about 15 times within 3 hours. She was also shivering and shaking like crazy. Poor girl. Couldn't find much on the net with those symptoms. Must've just been a little doggie flu because she was better today. She coughed a bit but thankfully no puke, and no vet.
   I'm reading a really awsome book right now. It's The Golden Compass by Philip Pullman. The first book I've gotten into in about a year! It's a little like harry potter but more adult and complicated. Another reason this book is so good is because I know that when I finish it I can start right in on the second book of the trilogy.
   I'm really enjoying my classes this semester. I've got Intro to Linux, Operating Systems, Programming in C (I really like this one), Web Design 2, Spreadsheet apps (BORING), Installation and Maintentence 2, Network Admin 2 and Pep Band (ugh). I love being able to do nearly all of my assignments on my computer. ^_^ Which reminds me, I have to get up sorta early to do a webpage. I'll probably have to do it at school since I don't have all the right files on my pc. I also have find time to shower. ^_-
Listening to ~ I'm on My Way - The Proclaimers

Sorta feel like writing. I've been meaning to start writing again for a few days now. I'm sorta drawing a blank right now though. For one thing I'm psychic. My sister has been really into fish for the past few months. (Actually she got me into them too!) Bettas at first, and then for christmas she got a 10 gallon fishtank. So we were really excited and bought a whole bunch of fish for it. We did all the stuff we needed to first of course. Let the tank cycle and stuff. Put the fish in. A few nights later I dreamt that I was trying to get kyla's fish safe but I kept dropping the jars and bags they were in as I moved them. They all died and I felt horrible that I couldn't keep them alive. Within the next day or two one of kyla's Bettas died. I didn't think much of it. About a week or two later, I had another dream. I dreamt about fish again. I don't really remember any of that dream at all but I know it involved fish. Found out the next morning that more of her fish died. Cause unknown. We pretty much ruled out inter-tank fighting, starvation, temp problems and whatnot. Actually one of those fish was caught in the filter. (about 3 died within that time) Finally, just the night before last I had a really CREEPY dream about her fish again. I dreamt that for some reason she had her betta jars in my room and when I discovered them I saw that they were all dead or dying. One of them was sort of spinning in circles at the top of the water half alive. Another was dead and bloated at the bottom. There was another one too - also dead. The very next morning I told my sis I dreamt of her fish again and she looked shocked. Sure enough she said that that morning she found about three more fish dead. She started out with 4 bettas, 2 catfish, 3 guppies, 2, snails, and one other which I can't remember. There are 2 snails and a catfish left. Kinda weird. The cause of death for nearly all of the fish is unknown. I think it was some kind of disease/bacteria. Whatever.
Listening to ~ The Energy - Audiovent

1. List five things you'd like to accomplish by the end of the year. Umm... It's pretty lame but maybe lose some weight, get a better job, read more books, .......that's it I guess.

2. List five people you've lost contact with that you'd like to hear from again. My cousin Patrick, Stu-chan,Jessica (last night I dreamt we saw eachother for the first time in years and I found out she had cancer...it was very strange),....once again that's it! It must be Thursday Threes today I guess.

3. List five things you'd like to learn how to do. Jeet Kun Do, play guitar, play pool better, surf, act.

4. List five things you'd do if you won the lottery (no limit). Buy my dad this car that he used to have. He sold it for 50 bucks. Fix up our house, buy a new pc, buy my family anything they want, fix up my uncle's restaurant.

5. List five things you do that help you relax. Make desktop wallpaper, walk my dogs, clean my room, listen to music, and most of all - drive.

[Listening to: wilis - Blue Dog PIct - (05:00)]

I can't look myself in the eye. Creepy. Have you ever been doing something in front of a mirror like brushing your hair or teeth and got that wierd feeling. I can't really explain the feeling. It's like realizing you are who you are. It also feels like your mind was empty before that moment, and then you are suddenly thinking. Or like you are no longer just going through the motions but have a choice. The feeling isn't all that complicated though. Anyway I got that last night when I was brushing my hair. It's happened before but it felt stonger and lasted longer last night. It always feels so creepy. Afterwards I always feel like my thoughts are empty again. Well that's all I can really say about it cuz that's all I know about it. If anyone who reads this has ever had that feeling or knows what it's called PLEASE e-mail me! I spend most of my life NOT thinking. Actually it's more like my thoughts are all so fleeting and meaningless they might as well have never have happened. My whole life is just "going through the motions". I've been having a good day today. I got up at about 9:30 and got my homework done. Got to class late but it's wasn't a big deal. It's been snowing the last few days. It is really pretty out. It's actually stopped snowing now and the sky is blue and there are a few white puffy clouds. After class I shoveled our driveway and sidwalks and part of my neighbor's walks. It felt good. My pup had fun out in the snow. She HATES water but LOVES snow. She's a little freak. My other dog isn't fond of either but tolerates water. Well after that I went and got a Crispy Chicken from McDonalds and it was really good. I brought that home and then folded some clothes. Then my pop came home and we ran around town trying to find a place that could sell us some tires for my car. Then I came home and started this. Anyway that's all I have for right now.
Cheerio ~ Keli

[Listening to: wilis - Blue Dog PIct - (05:00)]